When was the last time you really, truly poured your heart out to someone? Laid everything you are out flat? Made your brokenness known, and left everything on the table?
These questions surfaced as I thought about what to write today. Words leave me.
If nothing else remained, if all that I could muster was a sentence of what I’ve seen in the past sixty days, it’d be this:
God is real, He is working, He is wondrous, and He is so deserving of my praise.
I didn’t feel Him working for a while before I sat in that backseat, staring at my daughter fast asleep in her carseat. I couldn’t feel His presence for weeks, if not months, before I climbed into a truck in freezing, windy weather with my little girl in my arms to shelter her from what Satan was trying to do.
I still am in awe of how blatantly Satan attacked my family. How easy it could have been for him to take our lives. For him to cause our family unfathomable pain beyond our greatest nightmares.
That night, sitting in the backseat, every muscle in my body tense – I’ll never forget that moment for the rest of my life. She was so peaceful; she was safe and comfortable. It was late and our minds were weary from exhaustion, fear, and living from an empty cup for too long.
We had no idea how thirsty our souls were.
I learned so many things that night – that just because we believe in Jesus, doesn’t mean we have a perfect “hedge of protection” around us. It doesn’t mean Satan isn’t going to try to mess with us. Friends, the Bible literally says that Satan comes to steal, kill and destroy (John 10:10). I truly never thought I’d ever experience this truth first hand, but I did.
But you know what? I was dumbfounded by the Holy Spirit at work in me. Instead of wallowing in what’s happened to us, He continually reminds me of just how good God is; of all the things that could’ve happened, but didn’t. Of the comment of the fire department having no idea how our dog was still alive. Instead of focusing on my pain, He was turning me back to Him all along.
I’ve always loved the phrase “it is well with my soul”. It’s all over graphics, social media, quotes, everything. But do we ever take the time to think why? Why is it so well with my soul?
Friends, I am only here writing this to you right now because of Him. Because of God’s strength and mercy for my family, even when we continue to stray and lose focus, He literally saved our lives.
In the beautiful words of Rock City Worship:
It is wellSurely Now – Rock City Worship
because He’s right here.
If you are anxious, or if your soul needs rest, be assured friend – He’s right here. He’s right here.